First off I'm going to put it all out there so please don't judge but by being completely honest I need my readers to hold me accountable.
To help me somewhat justify this I'm going to start off by saying I'm 27 years old, 5'7", and I just had a baby about three months ago. This would be my second child. My first child is 2 and nothing toward weight loss or getting healthy was really done in the time in between the two so I'm doubly catching up. 
My weight: 250 lbs
There I said it.
It's out there.
Now you know.
That number is already about 50 lbs lower than my pre-pregnancy weight from this last child. No weight gain during the pregnancy and i actually lost about 25lbs, the average GAIN for a pregnancy. I had really let myself go before getting pregnant, good thing I have an amazing hubby that loves me anyway.
I don't really have a weight loss goal in mind just a weight loss period.
I do have what I consider an ideal size for me but once I get there ill decide if that's really where I wanna be since everyone's body is different and looks and carries weight differently at different sizes. Not to mention I'm not even sure how my body will react after birthing two children.
I'm not having any body image issues or anything it's just more about being healthy for myself, and my family. I've had body image issues in the past so I'm quite proud of being okay with myself now, but I do want to be healthy, have more energy, and be able to play with my girls for a long time to come.
So far I've cut back on my portions, and we've been doing our evening walks you've already read about in a previous post. I don't own a scale at home so I'm not sure about actual numbers but I do feel a little better about my health from doing that for a little bit now.
As far as my emotional health I'm sure you all know by reading previous post it's not doing to hot. I have good days and bad days, things look up and then we get knocked right back down. When I put myself out of the situation it's actually pretty balanced as far as the good and bad, but when deep in the mist of it there is no way out, at least that I can see.
I know most people say money isn't everything, but it is when you don't have any. It's a source to shelter, food, electricity, means of transportation, and even a stress relieve now and then in the form of a night out.
I'm not in denial, I'm aware the not all my problems stem from financial problems, but I feel like those are the most prominent problems as of late. Now that hubby has started working part time for the company he will soon, hopefully, be full time with the money has started flowing back in little by little. Now it's the catchup game we play for the next few months. Catching up on bills we owe, people we owe for help with bills, and then working on the past debt again and start savings. 
So I guess all of that sums up to... Today is a good day. The light is getting slightly brighter, and I'm just trying to not get my hopes up about anything right now.
I hope all of you, my readers, are well and happy in your lives right now. God Bless.
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