Control

With everything going on lately and my wavering faith I have to find distraction just to make it through a day. Tonight's distraction, walking. I find since everything else in my life is out of control I can control that. It makes me feel like I've accomplished something whether its true or not. 

Plus the upside is maybe a little weight loss and my daily exercise requirement. I'm hoping to continue doing this. Usually we take two laps, tonight we did six. (I needed extra distraction).

A/C is on the fritz in my car and my front tires need replacing because they are showing metal. To make it worse my warranty just ran out on the car about a week ago. 

The light is fading as the minutes pass. You know the one. The light at the end of the tunnel. 

God must think I'm superwoman, he has more faith in me than I have in myself...or him for that matter right now. Depression is starting to take over and I feel like every day is a fight just to get out of bed. I use cleaning my house as a coping mechanism right now. One more thing I can have control over. 

I'm ready to get control of my life back, just not sure how to do that.