Saturday, August 17, 2013

Rain


You know the old saying “when it rains it pours”? Well that is defiantly true with our family right now.
Rain is a funny thing. Rain lets me know that God has a sense of humor. You either need it or don’t. Right now our area is in dire need of rain. The lakes are down, water rations have been set, and a burn ban in effect to prevent fires from getting out of hand due to the drought. And although we’ve had a small shower here and there its not been enough to make an impact on the lack of rain we’ve had. And as badly as we need rain there are other areas that need it to stop raining. Flooding seems to have been more frequent this year due to rain in certain areas. In both cases the rain has a negative effect on the people and places that it’s needed or not needed. This, perhaps, is the reason we use that adage I stated above. It implies a negative association with rain.
This is of course a “worldly” meaning for rain. God uses the rain to cleanse, purify, and renew us and the world we live in. You know the look and smell after a good summer shower? When everything looks and smells a little fresher and cleaner? This is the rain I like to think about. Sometime I feel like I just need to stand in the rain and let God wash over me and renew me in my thoughts, and actions. It almost feels like a fresh starts. Live life, mess up, rain, start over.
In fact when I was married to my ex husband and he told me he wanted a divorce I was obviously devastated. I went to my parents and more or less sat in what used to be my bedroom crying, not crying, crying some more. I wanted him back. I was willing to do anything, including giving up ever having children. After about a week of separation and contemplation and prayer we met up to discuss things. Going into it I wanted him back still, and I didn’t have the strength to go on without him. During our meeting it began to rain, and something happened during that talk. Somehow God let me see what he had planed for me. He let me know it was okay to let go, to move on, to have a fresh start. I gathered up the courage during that talk to stand up for myself and I let go of the marriage that day. After the conversation had ended I just went outside and stood in that rain. I’m not sure what compelled me to do that as I haven’t done something like that since I was a kid. I just stood there with my mouth open staring up at the heavens and thanking God for allowing me to let go. God renewed me through that rain. He cleansed me of the marriage that was weighing me down spiritually. I got my fresh start standing in the rain that day.
As you all know we’ve really been struggling lately. Auto Insurance has been canceled but thanks to family we will be getting that taken care of. Hubby wakes up this morning to head to a job and his truck is gone. Re-possessed while we were sleeping last night. Everything still in it, tools, computer, satellite radio my parents got him for Christmas, and lots of paperwork. After many phone calls, the conclusion…we need to come up with about $2000 by Monday.
Any ideas?
We’ve been selling as much of our possessions as we possibly can, hubby has been working where and when he can. We are just praying with all our might that his job starts soon so we can get back up on our feet. All extra prayers are greatly appreciated as well.
I feel like the saying “when it rains it pours” pretty much sums up our lives right now. While the “pouring rain” is seemingly pushing us further and further
down I feel our family needs the “pouring rain” to wash over us, renew us, and give us a fresh start.
What that fresh start may be I don’t know, but God does. And as hard as it is, and believe me it’s hard, to trust that everything will work out and God has a plan for our little family in his timing.
Lord, bring on the rain!
Update: This was originally written on July 26 at about 2pm and later transferred to my blog after editing. Later that same day it did begin to rain and after a really short shower there appeared the most vibrant full rainbow in the sky. I saw it as I was talking, and crying, to one of my best friends on the phone. I just looked out the back window and there it was, the biggest sign from God I could ask for. Rainbows are God’s way of letting you know everything will be alright. It’s not alright yet but he has a plan and we just have to have faith. I’m thankful he gave me a little hint that he’s still got it under control.

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